haha guess i was too mixed up with my emotions that i dont know how to react properly to some emotions...also i think this winter i wouldnt be having any much of my free time:my scehdule is too packed already
this friday:training from two till six
eleven november or around there i have adventure camp and then there is some macbeth play coming soon also that was just part of my scheldule more will be added to it as i still have to return school frequently to prepare myself for the camp and campcraft team..also if i would to really end up in the team then next year for the first three months i will be too busy..see i am too bothered and confused by everything that i overlook it ..because of thus i was wondering if i am under some sort of mental torment that confuse my senses...the free time had been allowing me to play chess and not play chess with somebody or a computer but playing with myself..on top of that my second side was able to checkmate me without me even realiseing it before the first few turns ..so i was wondering if i am having split personalites...
but then come to think of it this whole year had thought me not to jump to conclusion too soon,so as long as i think it is then it would happen and as long as i think it isnt how it will turn up to be then then the thing will happen..for example in reversi i had always been thinking that i am on the losing side until the tables turn on my opponent and i won..also in chess just as i was on the brink of losing then i will think of something to have the whole situation reverse..at the same time both literature play had also taught me that appearance can be misleading therefore we shouldnt always come to a conclusion until the whole thing is over..indeed true to a certain extent therefore i can never been confident in myself in the situation i am at..
so in order for me not to end at to have mental problem i must think that i have mental problem cause mental problem people often think that they do not have mental problem and people who always think that they have mental problem will not have mental problem..wait...hang on a sec i think both ways will eventually leads to mental problem..arghh i think i just have to play chess with someone instead of solo chess!!!
by the way here is some recommendation for music lovers
try photograph by nickleback
it is a real touching song that can some how suit our current situation
it is about a song that will bring back lots of memories of our times together
by the way you can come to me if you want the song
